We choose

"
I wonder what's worse,
disappointment in reality or
feeling indifferent about whether reality changes or stays the same.

Life never turns its back on you.
You turn your back on yourself
when you allow every closed door to stop you
from moving on to the next one.

Sometimes we choose to stand at closed door
and hope that it will somehow open,
although that may defy logic and
although we may know deep down that
no goodness will come from it.

We wait.
We choose to wait.
We choose to have hope,
and we're always scared that the door will open the second we walk away.

We claim ownership over what we do not have and fear losing it,
although it really never was ours.
We read too much between the lines of hope
that we weave in our own mind's imagination,
only to figure out at the end that
we have woven a web of fragile hopes upon fragile hopes.

And just as with a spider's web,
once one thread is broken,
the whole web falls apart.
"
- NajwaZebian